Meh, such a failure I am...

[Ranmaru]

My Parents are so... ugh. Currently I am 18, and unemployed. As the only other person who can help with the bills, I am under handed. I'm applying to places every time I can, as if I'm not trying. Maybe I'm just not trying hard enough. Its not my fault my father fell ill and could not be able to work. My mother, really disapproves of me as a whole. Bleh, acts as if all the bills and problems are my fault, pretty heavy burden on my shoulders. Yesterday, I walked 20 minutes to a senior center and back (another 20 minutes). As I walked, confused, I was thinking of what to do, overwhelming. I am a vegetable, and I want it to get cooking, but I have no pot to boil it in. :(

Anyways, I want to help so badly, but no one is taking currently! What am I to do?? I really wish I could just leave because I am only a burden to them. I cannot take all the shit from them, especially my mother. I am a failure, so much shit I have tried, and failed horribly. I tried a year of Community College, but I didn't do well with my classes, and I was confused as to what to do. Highschool, its bullshit to me, I didn't learn any skills that would apply to anything to any fricking job. Next, that Primerica bullshit, which obviously I only could stand a week there, ugh.

Meh, things like this would cause me to have a break down. Nothing much else I can say, overall I'm confused with life and instead of moving upwards, I'm going dowwwnnn hilll. So yeah, I'm ranting about how much mistakes I have made, and how I stand currently. Thank you for reading my pathetic passage. :) If you feel the same way, I feel you brotha! (or sista) and I raise you a drink of vodka!!!

[MetaZedlen]

You are just in one hell of a bad spot right now.

Eventually, you will just brighten up one day and find something to go right, even if it is something microscopically (if that is a word) small, you will find something good.

I speak from experience, and let me tell you, it sucks being depressed, but if you are feeling like and things straighten out, you can put it all behind you and never look back.

[Ranmaru]

Thanks bro, I really hope so. If I ever brightened up, you would be the first to know. :)

[Sayara]

Do you go back to said hires and ask about them recieving your info? Or do you just sit and wait happly by the phone.

If you do the later, you'll never get a job.
GROCERY STORES, RETAIL are always looking for alittle bit of help, Keep looking.

[Shadowpawn]

It also helps to use job boards like careerbuilder, monster, yahoo hot jobs and indeed.com . They'll give you a boost in your job search.

[Ranmaru]

Not usually, I don't. Do you suggest I should go back after applying to ask if they have my application on file or something? Oh, I only have tried Snagajob.com so far.

[Sayara]

Yes.

I applied for the grocery store once. Waited a week for nothing, then i went in and asked.

"Oh, we'll interview you right now."

[Ranmaru]

Oh I see, Now I can recall many situations in which I could have gone back. Meh, now I know for the future. Thank you for that critical tip. :)

[TsukasaDCX]

Stop whining about it on the internet and do something about it
Its the only way your gonna get out

[Ranmaru]

Thanks, I will whine IRL instead! Just kidding. xD I will. :D I mean I will do something about it. ^_^

[Sekani]

I feel your pain more than you'll know, Ranmaru. Good luck to you.

[Ranmaru]

Thank you, Sekani, I appreciate your relation to my situation.

[Abashi76]

My Parents are so... ugh. Currently I am 18, and unemployed. As the only other person who can help with the bills, I am under handed. I'm applying to places every time I can, as if I'm not trying. Maybe I'm just not trying hard enough. Its not my fault my father fell ill and could not be able to work. My mother, really disapproves of me as a whole. Bleh, acts as if all the bills and problems are my fault, pretty heavy burden on my shoulders. Yesterday, I walked 20 minutes to a senior center and back (another 20 minutes). As I walked, confused, I was thinking of what to do, overwhelming. I am a vegetable, and I want it to get cooking, but I have no pot to boil it in. :(

Anyways, I want to help so badly, but no one is taking currently! What am I to do?? I really wish I could just leave because I am only a burden to them. I cannot take all the shit from them, especially my mother. I am a failure, so much shit I have tried, and failed horribly. I tried a year of Community College, but I didn't do well with my classes, and I was confused as to what to do. Highschool, its bullshit to me, I didn't learn any skills that would apply to anything to any fricking job. Next, that Primerica bullshit, which obviously I only could stand a week there, ugh.

Meh, things like this would cause me to have a break down. Nothing much else I can say, overall I'm confused with life and instead of moving upwards, I'm going dowwwnnn hilll. So yeah, I'm ranting about how much mistakes I have made, and how I stand currently. Thank you for reading my pathetic passage. :) If you feel the same way, I feel you brotha! (or sista) and I raise you a drink of vodka!!!

Well I am a failure too, so your not the only one.

[Ranmaru]

Glad to know that I'm not. ^_^

[Aisha379]

A failure is more of a state of mind than anything else - a state of mind saying you're not happy with your current path in life.


I can relate to the ill father bit, I work with my dad, and a few years ago he had a heart attack, he was off of work for months (and, since I worked with him, as was I). Thankfully, people at our church and work were able to donate enough money to see us through the hard time - so I guess its not EXACTLY the same situation, but I kinda get it at least *pat pat*.

If you want to get a job, follow Sayara's advice. I once applied for a job at Gamestop and I went there about every other day asking about it until the manager finally got so fed up with me he gave me the job without even looking over the other applicants~

Until they see you in person, you are just a piece of paper to them. It is critical (especially in the current job market situation) to more or less "get in the face" of your potential employer until they either give you a flat out yes or no. The more passionate you seem to be about getting the job, the higher chance you'll actually get it.


You just have to find your passion for life and pursue it as best you cant (unfortunately, I have no advice on how to do this...as I am trying to find mine 0_o)


Good luck.

[Leviathan]

Get a job in a fast food restaurant, they hire often. It's going to be damn near impossible for one to get a job in retail, so fast food is your best bet.

[Sayara]

Grocery stores (at least here) always need extra help. And they LOVE to hire 9 new hires than keep a 20 yr old veteran.

[Leviathan]

They don't want to pay you more. It's easier to get some new hires than to keep a guy that's been there longer &might want a raise soon.

Saves money.

[Sayara]

Thats why it'd be easy to get a job in that situation

[Ranmaru]

Hmmm, interesting. :3 Thank you very much, all of you. ^_^ I will take your advice, and we will see how it goes. :D

[biggabertha]

Being depressed sucks, I hate feeling depressed because you always treat people around you badly/differently.

Being a failure sucks because it makes you feel depressed.

Nothing going the way you want them makes you feel like a failure or when you don't meet people's expectations and they TELL you that you're a failure, sucks.

I've experienced all three (and actually failed a degree twice) a lot in my life but the two most important things to remember are:

1. If you always tell yourself: "I can't do it, I'm not good at it, people tell me I'm not good at it" then it's really hard to get out of the depression pit you're in. Think more positively, humans work better when chasing dreams - even if they are improbable/impossible dreams.

2. Try your best to stay away from drugs and/or alcohol. These sink you further down in the long run (not spoken from experience though).

Work's difficult to find, I know - especially if you have to pay and provide for yourself/family. It's at that point where you have to make that careful balance between keeping the roof over your head in the green, keeping warm and/or clean, working, studying, recreation or being fed. None of which, are easy options to drop out on but they do have their priorities.

Endure what you can, if you stick with it, surely something good will happen to off-set such sorrow and grief in your life. If you have friends to talk to and/or hug, those are nice supplements to help your cause.

[Rion772]

My Parents are so... ugh. Currently I am 18, and unemployed. As the only other person who can help with the bills, I am under handed. I'm applying to places every time I can, as if I'm not trying. Maybe I'm just not trying hard enough. Its not my fault my father fell ill and could not be able to work. My mother, really disapproves of me as a whole. Bleh, acts as if all the bills and problems are my fault, pretty heavy burden on my shoulders. Yesterday, I walked 20 minutes to a senior center and back (another 20 minutes). As I walked, confused, I was thinking of what to do, overwhelming. I am a vegetable, and I want it to get cooking, but I have no pot to boil it in. :(

Anyways, I want to help so badly, but no one is taking currently! What am I to do?? I really wish I could just leave because I am only a burden to them. I cannot take all the shit from them, especially my mother. I am a failure, so much shit I have tried, and failed horribly. I tried a year of Community College, but I didn't do well with my classes, and I was confused as to what to do. Highschool, its bullshit to me, I didn't learn any skills that would apply to anything to any fricking job. Next, that Primerica bullshit, which obviously I only could stand a week there, ugh.

Meh, things like this would cause me to have a break down. Nothing much else I can say, overall I'm confused with life and instead of moving upwards, I'm going dowwwnnn hilll. So yeah, I'm ranting about how much mistakes I have made, and how I stand currently. Thank you for reading my pathetic passage. :) If you feel the same way, I feel you brotha! (or sista) and I raise you a drink of vodka!!!

Move out already. I'm 17 and I moved out and currently live with my brother. If you're really putting this much effort into getting a job to help your parents and all they do is give you shit they're ingrates, forget them. Find a job as soon as you can and get out of there, find a roommate and split the rent and cable bill. I felt so much happier when I moved out, me and my mother never saw eye to eye on a lot of things.

[Ranmaru]

I would, but I can't right now. My parents talk shit to me, give me shit, but they also have problems. You don't know HOW I want to leave (or I think you do), but then again my mom is the only one supporting. I don't want to be a dousche and say fuck you mom I'm out because they support me. Although, I wouldn't stay here even if they supported me, its crazy here.

To leave, I would need to have helped them until it would be time for me to go. I only wish my dad could work so I could feel good if I left. I can't stay here forever.

What I mean to say is, I gave my parents problems too, I was always getting in trouble for some reason. :/ I want to make it up to them and apoligize to them before I left.