I am making this thread to say I'm sorry.

[Wyndham]

I have been a member of this website for many years. For a time, I was not doing very well. I have mental disorders. I used to be a very angry and depressed person. My life was very hard. My mother would not admit that I was trying in school as hard as I could. Things were really tough. I was in and out of hospitals for a few months, until the started giving me medication.

I really can't function normally even with my medication. It's hard for me to read emotions, and I don't know how to handle many situations. These things caused me to lose several friends. I was told years ago, that lots of people here don't like me, but won't admit it. This made me very sad. That sill bothers me. I try to be as friendly as possible.

I apologize for how I have acted over the years. I have no intention to be anything but as friendly as I can. I hope you guys can understand how badly I have felt the past years, and continue to feel.

Thank you for reading this, and I hope the people who I treated badly can understand Why I did these things.

[Sayara]

You.
Priority #1.
Don't worry about some random joes on a message forum here. Make sure you're OK and let the rest come to you as it can.

[Dhylec]

Don't take things over the internet too personally - they obviously got to ya somehow.
But from now on, you live your life, they live theirs. There is something call the ignore button, use it if it helps.

[Scrub]

if I can post an honest (but personal) response in this thread, please give me the go-ahead.

If you'd like, I could PM it to you instead.

[Wyndham]

A PM would work best. If you would really rather post it, go ahead.

[ShinMaruku]

Good to see you are making steps to recovery and you have your medication working. As for some people on here not liking you that should not be a concern do what makes you well. Some people just won't like you and that's fine as long as you find some friends.

[gigawuts]

Don't let other people shame you. Don't disregard past actions, but remember that that's what they are - past actions.

[Nitro Vordex]

If they can't handle you at your worst, they don't deserve you at your best.

[CanaanAzure]

I dont know you, but...

I kind of understand that whole situation.
If you'd like, I'll be your friend :D

[Wyndham]

I dont know you, but...

I kind of understand that whole situation.
If you'd like, I'll be your friend :D

Thank you. I am glad you guys are being nice to me.

[BIG OLAF]

I say fuck 'em, it's not like they'd apologize to you if they were the ones being rude or nasty. I've tried apologizing to people for things I say and do before. They don't accept it, so I've long since stopped. They can all blow it out their tailpipes. Most people aren't worth the mud on the bottom of your boots, so don't sweat it.

I've personally never seen you say or do anything that could even be considered worth apologizing for, anyway.

[Wyndham]

I have to say thank you to you guys. You were very helpful.

[Mystil]

Don't take things over the internet too personally - they obviously got to ya somehow.
But from now on, you live your life, they live theirs. There is something call the ignore button, use it if it helps.

For as long as I've been here.. I've only had to use the ignore button once.

..Anyway, I can relate to you, a whole lot, OP, and I was here for 12 years straight, and I haven't seen you say anything worthy of apologizing for. If anything, tons of members in the past and present, have A LOT to apologize for, but as you may have noticed already, they are above that.

Don't sweat it.

[Perry]

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[Wyndham]

Wyndham, do you have a youtube channel?

I have an account, but no videos.

[Dutch Ride]

You're good dude. I myself struggle with cyclothymic disorder, as well as a whole cocktail of other mental problems. I was always told that I was just acting out and that there was nothing wrong with me. I've struggled with this for years. I was suicidal as a teenager, even. But now I've learned out to deal with it and recognize when I have shifts in my mood. Best advice I can give that helped me was that it's something you have to work through, not something you have to work with. Surround yourself by patient, understanding friends. Get off all the pills and learn to deal with it on your own. It is possible. You don't have to be a medication zombie. I was on and off pills for the majority of my life. You don't need that shit. You're a strong capable person with the potential to handle anything life throws at you. Hang in there. It gets better my friend.

[Perry]

The reason I asked about youtube is because it's good therapy to put something online.

[Wyndham]

The reason I asked about youtube is because it's good therapy to put something online.

Well actually, I'm writing game reviews and working on making a series of books.

[Perry]

Are you going Amazon, Lulu, or with someone else?
http://www.lulu.com/publish/books/
http://outskirtspress.com/selfpublishing.html
http://kdp.amazon.com

Noneofmybusiness, but just interested.

[Wyndham]

Are you going Amazon, Lulu, or with someone else?
http://www.lulu.com/publish/books/
http://outskirtspress.com/selfpublishing.html
http://kdp.amazon.com

Noneofmybusiness, but just interested.

I'm writing a series of six books. I want to finish the first two before I search for a publisher. That way I have enough to show. I know someone who works for a publishing company who wants to help me.