blood ever boil that much that you lost it?

[BOC]

I'm not taking about 'ooh damn a paper cut!' or 'nuts their out of my favourite kind of ice-cream'. i mean the stuff that makes you want to start screaming, raving, yell, roar and/or beat somebody to death.

reason i ask is the other nite one of my 'associates', as i wouldn't call him a friend made a series of comments about someone close to me. if he had commented negatively of me, i wouldn't have cared as its water off a ducks back. but i cannot stand anyone speaking ill of my family and friends. and i had heard enough and smashed my fist into his face then jammed my fingers up his nostrils and told him that he was a fat usless piece of degenerate shit that would be lucky to live past 30 and that if he didn't shut the fuck up i was going to kill him. or something along those lines

and im feeling really bad about it now. this dude knows how to push my buttons and loves to get me all wound up just to see when i'll snap. and i did. and i resorted to violence. on somebody i've known since i was 11 and considered a sort of friend.

right now i feel like shit. i don't know what feels worse, the fact that i hit somebody in a bad temper and looked like an asshole infront of the rest of my friends or the fact that this dude 'won'. that i snapped.

im very easy going, it takes a lot to get my angry and even more to make me want to hit someone.

so what about you guys? has anything ever really made your blood boil that you did something you regretted afterwards? said something you shouldn't? done something that you shouldn't? attacked another human in a fit of pure rage?

PEACE!!!

[SpikeOtacon]

I think this belongs in rants, and I have felt my blood boil over in anger quite a lot. I've gotten much better about my anger recently, actually. I used to be horrible with it. But I feel that i've become a bit of a better person now that I can keep my cool longer.

[burnningthings3]

Ouch. Well I hope he's okay, but if he's been pissing you off all this time I would leave him in your past and move on. I would also go to him and apolgize. And if he pisses you off again just walk away knowing that even though he made you make an ass of your self atleast you will not see him again.

[Madzozs]

I was like that today at work as a matter of fact. Just a bit of advice, never get intimate with your boss because shit goes awry afterwards. My boss and I had a relationship after summer camp ended last year. She is 5 years older than me, and seemed to be much more mature than I. Today we were on a hike with a group of 40 kids, and 5 other counselors. My boss had led the group, and we had a number of stragglers that needed help to climb some of the hills as they were very rocky. This caused her to be nowhere in site with 17 kids, and the remaining counselors with 23 kids that needed to take it a bit slower. When we caught up, she started to leave with 4 kids and said nothing. Then she turns and yells for us to get moving, so I ask her to wait. She bugs out on me. I've been working there longer than her, and I know the kids, and I understand having to take hikes slow as I have terrible knee problems.

All in all, if it wasn't for this one girl whom I refer to as my conscience, I would've launched a boulder at her face.

[Nazo]

Madzozs, what job do you have to have a woman as your boss? http://www.pso-world.com/psoworld/images/phpbb/icons/smiles/icon_eek.gif

Anyway, yeah. This has happened a lot, especially in the unfortunate environment I live in. Some things that tick me off to the last straw include:

-Sister and Britney Spears at Max vol (not the recent one... the FIRST, OLD ones...) =[
-My mom's will to have everything and ALL things at her wish and command
-The unfair heirarchy of social relationships at our school.
-FSOD, BSOD.
-and finally, the unfairness of love and all...

http://www.pso-world.com/psoworld/images/phpbb/icons/smiles/icon_razz.gif Well, these may be technical... there's some other stuff that I don't care to mention, but these are some of the more practical stuff that should be well considered.

[KodiaX987]

Everytime, against everything.

[opaopajr]

yup, even i snapped before.

it's that "Seeing Red," feeling. i actually saw red, everything was a reddish haze, and then i lost it. i was a little kid though, around 5 (?). the other kid, boy, was smaller than me and was throwing around this pocket knife and there was my friends, girls, playing with us. i think he said something rather... gee, i can't really remember... something sexist or abusive or something... and i just lost it. tried to wrestle kid to ground, tried to break his back. i almost succeeded until the girls, horrified at the scene, said something to me and i just 'woke up.' the boy had to hobble back home hunched over crying and holding his back. the girls, stunned by the scene, mumbled something oblique and quickly went back home.

i felt victorious for having 'defended my friends' honor' at first. but when i got back home i started to have doubts. after telling my dad, he was proud of me and said you did the right thing. looking at my mom's horrified face and her stunned inability to say anything for awhile furthered my doubt. part of me knew i did something wrong. later after talking (and crying) with her more i found that she was disappointed that i lost it and hurt somebody needlessly - we were only children and we need to know such behavior is wrong. the selfish glee of combat and victory vanished in the face of empathy knowing i had hurt somebody who thought of me as friend. betrayal and abuse all out of the blue without any real explanation made me feel really bad. what i did was wrong and i vowed to myself that i must control my temper. beating people down in a moment of anger is wrong - violence must be reserved for only the most heinous and unresolvable of problems.

that incident changed my life. i learned to feel outside of myself and grow up from selfish attitides.

your situation sounds a bit different, but there's some striking similarities.

[AUTO_]

I didn't really snap on a kid--just gave him what was coming to him.

I through him up against the wall in the boys locker room (freshman PE) and he hit the ground really hard when he landed (it's basically concrete).

He pushed me around when I responded to his "trash talking" which led me to throw him into the wall.

To make things more degrading on his part, I basically spit on his face while standing above him followed by some offensive line that I can't remember.

We used to be good friends--and now we barely say two words to one another at school.

Not really sad to me, though.

The kid's a prick.

[WraithVerge]

Don't think I have. If I did I don't remember. :/


If anyone attempts to piss me off, I just smile and laugh. I find it exteremely funny that someone is trying to anger me. The ONLY person who can easily get under my skin is my brother. Wow the times I wanted to grab his throat... http://www.pso-world.com/psoworld/images/phpbb/icons/smiles/icon_nono.gif

[navci]

Yes I did.
And I have done things I regretted to this day.

http://www.pso-world.com/psoworld/images/phpbb/icons/smiles/icon_disapprove.gif

edit: Ya know, it isn't always have to be about killing, or seriously hurting someone physically also. Surely, if no one dies it seems less serious, but if you hurt someone emotionally deeply without understanding you have done so it really sucks also. http://www.pso-world.com/psoworld/images/phpbb/icons/smiles/icon_frown.gif

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[space_butler]

i almost threw a chair at a group of twats in a german lesson once does that count? they had been throwing dictionarys at my head for about half an hour and i just lost it. luckily i didnt actually throw the chair because id probably have been expelled or something..even if they did deserve it. ive seriously considerd knifing another idiot a couple of times, and if i had my knife on me i would have done last time I saw him.

[Madzozs]

I work in child care. The only reason she is my boss is because her degree is a bit more "Parent Friendly". I have an associates in Liberal Arts(getting my B.A. in History), and she has a masters in guidance counseling.

[Skett]

Yeah, my blood gets boiled many times. The time I most remember was in school, this person kept bothering me. So one day I cracked, started yelling (quietly, mind you) at this person during class while the teacher was teaching. Oddly no one, teacher included, seemed to notice.

Now a days, the things that boil me are my sister calling videogames useless (and I could easily say the same thing to what she does), retarted fanboys, and developers (you should see my 1UP.com account. I created articles ranting about things like Exclusives that never stay exclusive).



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[Nazo]

On 2004-07-21 04:57, Madzozs wrote:
I work in child care.




Awwwhhhh... We don't see that every day. http://www.pso-world.com/psoworld/images/phpbb/icons/smiles/icon_smile.gif A guy who loves little piles of fat running around crying or hitting.

No but seriously, you've landed on a better job than I've heard of recently, PSOW & non-PSOW. Good luck to ye.

[SunScar]

I've never actually snapped at a single person physically like that. Once one of my guyfriends did something really mean to me and then later called me to further insult me and i got so upset that i smashed the phone on the wall and then proceeded to totally wreck my room (turning over bookselves, computers, and breaking my tv). After I finally "woke up" I felt really stupid and bad not to mention i had to buy a whole bunch of new stuff...

[anwserman]

Somebody left trash outside the window at the Dairy Queen I work at. Less then five fucking feet from the garbage can.

Needless to say, that was the cracking moment for all things among things at that day.
I called an employee up to look at the cup, and I went in back and yelled at the fucking lazy customer and started to tear up and I started sobbing on how I hated everything in my life.

Got off of work later, went to my sister's and had a nice three day vacation. I really needed it too. http://www.pso-world.com/psoworld/images/phpbb/icons/smiles/icon_smile.gif

[KaFKa]

i've only snapped once. although, looking back, its a good thing that i let them pull me off of him or else i would be in prison serving a life sentence.

do i regret it? no. i enjoyed every moment of beating him into a convulsing pile of flesh. although that night has lost me a few friends, its nothing. he got what he deserved. although in your case, boc, im not sure if you had done the right thing in trying to mutilate him. if he is in constant contact with you, and always screws with you, then im not sure what to say, as i'm not in your shoes.

[Aredhel]

Wow, there does seem to be a lot of bad-asses at PSOW http://www.pso-world.com/psoworld/images/phpbb/icons/smiles/icon_nono.gif

Maybe some of you should take up the martial arts - it gives you a sense of security so great that you never really need to lift a finger in anger because you know you could easily decimate this person - so why bother? Far more effective than anger management or counseling in my opinion. And if all these stories of almost killing someone else because they said something about your mum are true - some of you need something (counseling, martial arts, a fucking girlfriend).

Maybe it's just my genes - anger just doesn't come to me when I'm dealing with another human being. http://www.pso-world.com/psoworld/images/phpbb/icons/smiles/icon_confused.gif

[KaFKa]

On 2004-07-21 08:25, Aredhel wrote:
And if all these stories of almost killing someone else because they said something about your mum are true - some of you need something (counseling, martial arts, a fucking girlfriend).

although i can't speak for everyone else here, what i was speaking about was a solitary event, and there were a few years of bad blood between the two of us.

martial arts arent for everyone. although for most people, they would be a good thing, there are some people that just shouldnt know the "finer arts of ass kicking" (as a friend of mine puts it.) and judging from some of the responses, i can see maybe one or two that fit that bill. just a casual observation.

Counseling costs money, usually too much http://www.pso-world.com/psoworld/images/phpbb/icons/smiles/icon_disapprove.gif

i agree wholeheartedly on the girlfriend thing http://www.pso-world.com/psoworld/images/phpbb/icons/smiles/icon_biggrin.gif (although in my case that was the proverbial straw that broke the camels back. http://www.pso-world.com/psoworld/images/phpbb/icons/smiles/icon_disapprove.gif)

[Solstis]

I generally try to keep my firey rage to a minimum, but when I do react violently, I usually end up looking like a jackass.

Yelling wise, people tend to be surprised how deep and authoritive my voice can become.

Unfortunately though, once I start yelling, I have a habit of slightly tearing up out of anger. Which makes me angrier, and so on.

After I cool off, I realize how much of a jerk I was.

http://www.pso-world.com/psoworld/images/phpbb/icons/smiles/icon_frown.gif

And then Solstis feels sad.

[Sharkyland]

I am so afraid sometimes when I get so angry that the person who insulted me beyond what I can handle, I can seriously kill. I know I'm a loser, but I usually run away because that feeling that I know that I kill is so great. Sure, my friends haven't seen me fight, and I have never seen myself fight, but...

I'm one of those people that if he attacks in enraged outburst, I will use every single vital spot on your body to kill you. I will rip your body to shreds, and I will bathe in your blood as I multilate it more and more.

And this is why I would rather be a coward than go all out mad.

Though...

Keeping on topic... I have a few friends that know me, and I know a very few that likes to see people get angry over some stupid little thing that is none pertinent to them. Certain days you can control it, but sometimes when it starts, it just goes and you finally don't realize what you've done after what you have done. Surely, I know everyone doesn't want to have something they like or love mostly about get insulted. But if he likes to see you angry, just don't see him.

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[BOC]

On 2004-07-20 19:28, burnningthings3 wrote:
Ouch. Well I hope he's okay, but if he's been pissing you off all this time I would leave him in your past and move on. I would also go to him and apolgize. And if he pisses you off again just walk away knowing that even though he made you make an ass of your self atleast you will not see him again.


hes fine, just had a soar nose for a day or 2. and i already said sorry. he was very quick to forgive, despite his gloating. normally i just laugh stuff off, turn it into a joke, but when something hits a nerve..



On 2004-07-21 08:03, KaFKa wrote:
boc, im not sure if you had done the right thing in trying to mutilate him. if he is in constant contact with you, and always screws with you, then im not sure what to say, as i'm not in your shoes.


dude its hardly like i went resvoir dogs on him, i punched him once and jammed my fingers up his nose. trust me, none of my strength lies in my arms, so it was hardly like the rock vs an old lady. but it was the wrong thing to do. though i wouldn't call him a friend. or a mate. or a buddy. he just is there, hangs around with me and my friends because nobody else can stand him, and none of us have the heart to tell him where to go. well, until somebody explodes into a violent fit and gets physical.



On 2004-07-21 08:25, Aredhel wrote:
Maybe some of you should take up the martial arts - it gives you a sense of security so great that you never really need to lift a finger in anger because you know you could easily decimate this person - so why bother? Far more effective than anger management or counseling in my opinion. And if all these stories of almost killing someone else because they said something about your mum are true - some of you need something (counseling, martial arts, a fucking girlfriend).


hmmmmm, yeah i could use a girlfriend, but what single guy doesn't eh http://www.pso-world.com/psoworld/images/phpbb/icons/smiles/icon_wink.gif? its not that i lack any sense of control and that i lash out at everyone who udders 'hur hur hur, your momma!!'. this dude constantly tried to make me go nuts, and all the shite his given me built up.

anyone who knows me personally could tell you that im very passive. this was a rare event. only ever happened once before, and that was in defence of a friend. this asshole who thought he'd try his hand at bullying started to push my best mate around. went on for weeks and it annoyed the crap out of me because my buddy didn't do anything about it and wouldn't let me or anyone else do anything.

so one day the 'bully' decides to trip my friend up in the lockers and fart on him. i snapped. i grapped the assholes giant fat head, crammed it into my locker and continually smashed the door into his head. i'll not make myself sound like a badass, he fought back and i did walk away bruised. but he never came near me or my friends again. that act of agression i can say i throughly enjoyed. i dont regret doing it. i despise bullies.

though im still in doubt about anger management. http://www.pso-world.com/psoworld/images/phpbb/icons/smiles/icon_wink.gif

PEACE!!!

[Dhylec]

i experienced what i call 'implosion'.. twice a few years ago for due to some upseting events

the implosions paralyzed me with anger.. which scared me & evryone else to dead =P

then i learned to deal with w/it myself..
now those similar events return, but i'm ok
so i can say i'm over it.. yah! http://www.pso-world.com/psoworld/images/phpbb/icons/smiles/anime1.gif

[darthsaber9x9]

On 2004-07-21 17:12, Dhylec wrote:
i experienced what i call 'implosion'.. twice a few years ago for due to some upseting events

the implosions paralyzed me with anger.. which scared me & evryone else to dead =P

then i learned to deal with w/it myself..
now those similar events return, but i'm ok
so i can say i'm over it.. yah! http://www.pso-world.com/psoworld/images/phpbb/icons/smiles/anime1.gif



that was a strangely confusing post from someone like you dhylec!

and kafka: the funny thing is, when you learn the "finer points of ass kicking" as you put it you also learn a hell of a lot more, and makes you less prone to violence in many respects. and for me, my self confidence shot up when i started martial arts.

and i need a girlfriend http://www.pso-world.com/psoworld/images/phpbb/icons/smiles/icon_disapprove.gif...and a job http://www.pso-world.com/psoworld/images/phpbb/icons/smiles/icon_disapprove.gif....and a whole lot of other stuff http://www.pso-world.com/psoworld/images/phpbb/icons/smiles/icon_disapprove.gif

[Shammed]

Wait, so you stuck your fingers up his nose? http://www.pso-world.com/psoworld/images/phpbb/icons/smiles/icon_disapprove.gif


I am so afraid sometimes when I get so angry that the person who insulted me beyond what I can handle, I can seriously kill. I know I'm a loser, but I usually run away because that feeling that I know that I kill is so great. Sure, my friends haven't seen me fight, and I have never seen myself fight, but...

I'm one of those people that if he attacks in enraged outburst, I will use every single vital spot on your body to kill you. I will rip your body to shreds, and I will bathe in your blood as I multilate it more and more.

And this is why I would rather be a coward than go all out mad.
I don't know what's better to sum up how I feel about this post, and a lot of the other posts found in this thread, other than a simple 'roll eyes' emoti.

http://www.pso-world.com/psoworld/images/phpbb/icons/smiles/icon_rolleyes.gif http://www.pso-world.com/psoworld/images/phpbb/icons/smiles/icon_rolleyes.gif http://www.pso-world.com/psoworld/images/phpbb/icons/smiles/icon_rolleyes.gif

(or 3)

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[Sagasu]

In all honesty, BOC, he brought it upon himself..

One too many people take too lightly to jerking anothers chain, so you get what you ask for, I say.

As some one has mentioned, martial arts does disclipline you somewhat, but then again it trains you to be more efficient about venting your anger. I've done martial arts off and on for a lot of my life, the longest period of time consecutively was 3 years, and I have to say its quite the learning experience..

Me? Blow up? Hmm.. yeah, an athiest anarchist kid like myself in public school is asking for trouble. One of the few times I've seriously blown up was not because someone was verbally attacking me, but someone else. It wasn't even a friend of mine, or a pretty girl, just some poor kid on the bus that was the target of one hell of a nasty day. And what annoyed me, is that he wasn't defending himself, and just forced back the tears and stared at the seat behind him. So I got involved in his business, blood boiling as you call it, and literally picked a fight with the ring leader.

It wasn't untill after many harsh words where spoken, (bus driver yelling as well) that any physical contact arouse. To tell the truth he boiled first, and started our "fight" by smapshing my head up against a window. At this time I was beyond the point of caring. So he threw a punch at me, I grabbed his arm and guided his face to my fist, and then my elbow found a nice soft spot in the back of his neck.

By this time our really big, fat bus driver waddled over, yelling at the top of her lungs, and I realized what I had just done. I'm not usually one to take such things seriously, but I realized if I hadn't screwed up on my elbow to the neck, the kid now yelping slumped back in his seat could have been paralyzed.

Needless to say I was suspedned off the bus, and from school. One of the few reasons I was not expelled was because our bus driver was too lazy to write a convincing report, and I acted upon self defence.

I realize now I should have just let the kid cry, to stupid to defend himself, that or un-experienced. I got no thank you, and I felt no pride, and I interfered with someone elses life.

Three things that matter to me basically tooka stab from that, and I've been pretty docile ever since. But it makes you realize that your a mortal, and your emotions shall overrun your principals in the end http://www.pso-world.com/psoworld/images/phpbb/icons/smiles/icon_nono.gif

Humans disgust me.. http://www.pso-world.com/psoworld/images/phpbb/icons/smiles/icon_disapprove.gif