Sayara
Aug 27, 2004, 10:41 PM
I am not one to rant often. So my rantin skills = the sucks, so bare with me ok?
Please look at this chart.
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v26/Snoopychan/JPIC.gif
Lets us pretend that...
C is repersenting my brother
P is repersenting my parents.
I is repersending my Uncle and My brother's Boss.
and lets let J be me.
As you can see the chart looks rather unfriendly... For CPI are all in the middle of a chaotic mishapen melee of arguing. As a matter of fact P and C are always arguing about one thing or another.
THOUGH recently we add a new element I into the mix. My Uncle, has employed my brother to work for him. And things go through for like 6 years then things get ugly. For my Uncle has been calling my Parents telling them that my brother has not been doing his job. So this begins a HUGE heated arguing for like 3 weeks.
Now you ask me, how do I fit into this? Well simply...
1. I am around both the Parents and my Brother alot. Never at the same time though because Arguing makes me upset.
2. I know my Uncle alot and i also worked there for a year but quickly quit. So me and him are close.
3. My brother tells me things i DONT need to hear. Like how he hates all of them, and he tells me things i did my best to ignore (fights fights)
4. My parents constantly use me to check up on my brother and expect me to get answers out of him.
Its come to the point that i've Unvoluntarly got myself in the middle of this cursed "war." And honestly. I don't like it Because it reviels how weak and poor are family connections are. For my parents probably hate my brother now. And my Brother hates both my parents and my uncle. And also its not even my fight!
So i keep trying to slowly creep out of this hole by avoiding the arguement rooms, by blasting music or hiding in my room, But its still not enough. I still get dragged more and more into this crap. And its making me CRAZY.
MY GOD what i wouldnt do for like a time back fucking 6 years ago before this entire shit ever happened!
Ok, now that that is off my chest. I think im good now. Yes, its probably a horrible rant but i tried. Basically i am tired of this stupid crap fighting i'm in the middle of, and i need to find a way out. And since Trying to run away from it doesnt help, i dont know what does.
Thank you.
Please look at this chart.
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v26/Snoopychan/JPIC.gif
Lets us pretend that...
C is repersenting my brother
P is repersenting my parents.
I is repersending my Uncle and My brother's Boss.
and lets let J be me.
As you can see the chart looks rather unfriendly... For CPI are all in the middle of a chaotic mishapen melee of arguing. As a matter of fact P and C are always arguing about one thing or another.
THOUGH recently we add a new element I into the mix. My Uncle, has employed my brother to work for him. And things go through for like 6 years then things get ugly. For my Uncle has been calling my Parents telling them that my brother has not been doing his job. So this begins a HUGE heated arguing for like 3 weeks.
Now you ask me, how do I fit into this? Well simply...
1. I am around both the Parents and my Brother alot. Never at the same time though because Arguing makes me upset.
2. I know my Uncle alot and i also worked there for a year but quickly quit. So me and him are close.
3. My brother tells me things i DONT need to hear. Like how he hates all of them, and he tells me things i did my best to ignore (fights fights)
4. My parents constantly use me to check up on my brother and expect me to get answers out of him.
Its come to the point that i've Unvoluntarly got myself in the middle of this cursed "war." And honestly. I don't like it Because it reviels how weak and poor are family connections are. For my parents probably hate my brother now. And my Brother hates both my parents and my uncle. And also its not even my fight!
So i keep trying to slowly creep out of this hole by avoiding the arguement rooms, by blasting music or hiding in my room, But its still not enough. I still get dragged more and more into this crap. And its making me CRAZY.
MY GOD what i wouldnt do for like a time back fucking 6 years ago before this entire shit ever happened!
Ok, now that that is off my chest. I think im good now. Yes, its probably a horrible rant but i tried. Basically i am tired of this stupid crap fighting i'm in the middle of, and i need to find a way out. And since Trying to run away from it doesnt help, i dont know what does.
Thank you.