Well that is good, I had a work ish full weekend. I don't like to work weekends when I don't have too. >.> My woks just as cappy as the bad parts of your old job. Awesome! That will be good to have another kitty! What kind is it? What's it name so far?
Awesome and more awesome! DO you have a lot of plans for that week too?
Feeling slightly better today. No headache, at least. I wouldn't say I feel really down, either... Well... Not so overly much anyway, mostly my mood today is just strange. I'm not sure how else to put it.
I don't know... Been feeling pretty awful today. My head's been hurting and I've been feeling quite down, thinking a lot. Been lying in bed doing nothing for better part of the day. I tried to go to sleep early as well, but... There's no way I can fall asleep, I just lie staring in the ceiling, so I just gave up on that. Sitting by my compy for a bit now.
I think the only positive thing lying down was figuring out part of why I don't feel like I'm myself when interacting with other people, but I do feel like me talking to friends via my compy. It seems like my language issues are bigger than I thought they were, even if I knew them to be quite substantial, but... I just tried whispering to myself in English while lying in bed, and it was just night-and-day compared to me trying to talk Swedish, and I ended up gesticulating a whole lot - which is something I never do - without even thinking about it. I just can't express myself at all in Swedish, it's like my brain just hits a brick wall trying to figure out sentences to say, and everything feels plain unnatural. I really feel that English is my language, not Swedish. Everything that's ever mattered to me has been in English. Meeting people, making friends, reading about my interests, music, learning to communicate feelings and express myself, getting a sense of identity and figuring out who I am... Everything! I am entirely incapable of communicating things like ideas, thoughts, and feelings in Swedish. And I'm stuck feeling I'd look like an idiot trying to speak English with people. But... At least I felt like I'm actually me lying there in bed whispering to myself. I needed a reality-check of some sort.
But overall, there's a lot of issues spinning around in my head and that was the only thing I managed to figure anything from. Overall it's just not been a good day. I guess 'troubled' would be the word.
Hopefully work is not that bad and all those other problems are solved now! Then you are going to have a run soon too! Hopefully work is still rather fun for you!
I hope you will have a awesome weekend to make up for your week days! :P If not? I'll have to do something about it!
And Christmas is really a conglomeration of various pre-christian winter solstice-related rituals and festivities, which have been different in different places in Europe. I know they mentioned it coming from the Romans in some documentary I saw once, but up here in the north it comes from old local Viking-era traditions. And then somewhere down the line christianity tried to make something up at close to the same date to try to out-compete the old traditions people already had, which people didn't lightly give up on, but... It's still the same old pre-christian thing with some minor tweaks to make it look more christian, and the date is very slightly off, since the winter solstice is usually the 21:st - 22:nd or thereabouts. But the christmas tree, for example is a clear relic of pre-christian germanic traditions, only they hung the tip of a pine up-side down over the feasting-table as a ward against evil spirits, elves and such, as they believed the boundaries between worlds were weakened during the solstices and equinoxes of the year. We put a bigger bit of pine on the floor, but that's still where it came from.
And here in Sweden we still have the summer solstice rituals going with midsummer and such. Somehow it doesn't pretend to be Christian though, other than a slight modification of the midsummer pole maybe... Well... You do see both variants, actually. I think Easter and our All Helgona (sort of a remembering-the-dead thing in the fall) are also stem from those pagan traditions really. Funny how some things never go away, they just change names and get some face-lifts.
I'm okay... Though I have a slight headache 'cause I had a difficult time sleeping last night, but nothing too bad. *yawn* My gramps and uncle said they'd drop by today, so we'll see what happens, I guess.
Didn't know there was that today. Seems like hardly any holidays or such are on the same day between here and there!
Is your head feeling any better yet, or does it keep lingering? *snuggles*
Yes pleeeease! Bah got a bit of a headache now, been playing too much in the morning....... (dam timezones....!) How is u so far? How's teh cabin triip!
*huggles* I'm okay. There's been a whole lot of rain and thunder today. Been mostly sitting around downstairs playing on dad's Spanish guitar in the dark, with the table full of candles. Every single finger is sore now, except for my left hand thumb and right hand pinky. Looks like I even have a blister!
Something clicked in my head today, though. I was taught more of a classical style grip when I was little, but now I ended up doing a more folksy style grip, 'cause it's much more similar to the thumb + index finger plucking I do a lot on bass. Some arpeggio just came up, that was very specific, like I was remembering it from something, so I tried figuring out what the heck it was, and building on that. Ended up giving my hands one heck of a challenge playing it all! Turns out it was bits from two different songs though, which explains why I couldn't quite piece them together. Was nice and cosy though! I'm home alone today...
Tested those two different fans in my compy, with and without the dust filter, and... The stock one is actually quieter so long as I have the dust filter in. So I finished up that too. Overall it's just been nice and easy today. Felt good getting away from sitting in front of the compy for a bit. It's kind of stressful somehow being available all the time.
Yeah, I'm super sensitive about my eyeballs too. x( My eyedoctor recommended saline solution to me a year or so ago and I started using it and an eye cup anytime my eyes were all dry and scratchy and it works freakin' miracles. Took me a while to get used to it. I just do it in a dark room that way I don't have to see it. xD
Yeah, I'm feeling a ton better. Though it wouldn't take much to be an improvement over the shit show that was last week, yeah? xD
Glad you're not letting the dumb ol' headache get you down. If your eyes are all dry and itchy, you could always get some saline solution and an eye cup. Works wonders for me.
I ended up cleaning out my PC real good. I also thought that I have this nice Noctua 120mm fan in my previous build (which is my parents compy these days), so I took out the stock 120mm fan from my can and that can, hooked them up to the PWM thing I have on that old PC and compared them side-by side for noise and air-flow at different voltages, and the Noctua was way more silent and blew much more air than my stock fan, so I decided to put that into my current compy, and my stock one into the old one.
But... Oddly enough, my little compy is much louder now, despite it using the quieter fan I put in from the test. Which is really weird. But it does blow a heck of a lot more air through than the stock one I had. I'll have to figure out a way to make it run at a slower speed, and that would fix it, I think. It seems to be spinning on full blast non-stop. It's still really weird, though... Why this and not the other one? They're both 3-pin fans and I hooked them up the exact same way... ._.
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Well that is good, I had a work ish full weekend. I don't like to work weekends when I don't have too. >.> My woks just as cappy as the bad parts of your old job. Awesome! That will be good to have another kitty! What kind is it? What's it name so far?
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