I can tell em how bad my days usually are.
I'm going to just flow my ideas and thoughts out of my head before I explode. Run along if this is "too much text", or you "don't have time to read it".
Heh Sunny California. The day before 84 degree heat working on higher Summer heat. Day later-tsunami warning off coast-for Vancouver from Earthquake 90 miles off coast of California, cancelled after a few hours. Brings rain though.
Didn't start raining hard until I leave the house on my 30 minute walk, after taking a shower and rushing to get ready for work. Walk into work soaked after the 30 minute walk in the pouring rain.
Think about Shenmue and Ryo walking around with no hat/hood in the rain/snow when everyone else has raincoats and umbrellas.
Streets flooding again. Hills, not enough drains. Mud slicks sliding down some sidewalks-have to walk in the street to not trip and fall down.
Everyone at work talking about going to graduation!
Heh, in the rain. Probably better than mine though.
People supposed to cheer right? Whoo! Its over he got his diploma! He's going to be a millionaire! Dead silence when they call my name and I walk. Parents, brothers, family friends, grandparents, classmates, nothing. Can hear crickets.
Someone's boyfriend changed schedules with me the night before and the girlfriend is upset, causing me to say sorry. I felt guilt since I didn't even ask why he wanted the schedule change. They could have worked the same hours. Thus happiness.
J-pop/rock/metal music gets played for the latter half of the shift. Hmm, interesting. I'm listening to a little as of late. Then Full Metal Anime Alchemist song comes on and I lose all interest.
Champloo/MINMI/Nujabes for me please.
Schedule is changed by boss, no-one informs me and I have another 12 hour shift on a day I usually don't work. WTF SUCK Damn. Thanks boss, the schedules are supposed to be set 1 week in advance, not last minute. And for the why? Oh this person can't work, sorry.
Always taking advantage of me not having anything "important" to do in my life.
I need to quit-but then be branded a quitter and loser by the rest of this populace. People my age steal money, don't show up for work, and end up getting worse and worse jobs. I'm not going to be branded a loser like they have been.
I couldn't even find the will to go to the bank to deposit paychecks for like 6 months. Schedule got changed and I couldn't get to the bank before it closed. Still don't know how to deposit through ATM machine. I suck with simple technology sometimes.
Hardly anyone but the Spanish speaking guys talk to me anymore. Always cussing at me in Spanish as well, so I just cuss back in Spanish. Frustration over things that cannot be translated in terms of the working evironment, both me and them having problems with mixed messages.
Not fun. No fun. No friends. No hanging out. No going anywhere. Still being friendly to everyone but always bitter.
Idiot kids-former friends coming and in waving to me saying Hi. I ignore them. I'm usually busy anyway-both hands full. They don't get it. After they started being racist and very bitter over me purchasing things with the money I work hard for, I stopped hanging out with them. I don't need to be made fun of by immature spolied brats for spending my money on my 1 day off a week, WTF.
They came in as I had the stupid cashier job and one little punk berates me as I press the wrong button for making his order. Says it mumbling, under his breath. A sick bastard. Not worth it so I let it slide, he always berates people, even his friends. Cynical bastard.
I ask if they wanted my new cell phone number before they leave-against my better judgement. Hurry they say, we gotta go. Hmmph. they were the ones bothering me on AIM and coming in waving hi even though I'm holding grudges. I try to concede and compromise-let it go and later on AIM "Why haven't you guys called, its been 2 weeks?" "oh that little paper you gave me, i lost it lol"
Well fuck man. You could have put down that phone that was up to your ear, telling me its new(and showing your parents bought it for you when my parents yelled at me and made a scene when I wanted to get my own phone!) and inputted my number in the phone. What was the hurry about? Weren't you trying to continue to be friends? No thanks. I've had enough.
"How much money do you make now?!" "You still working at that one place?!"
WTF. I don't barely know you and that is the only thing you ask me?! What does it look like I make, its an entry level job. I do my best, I'm better than the average doofus that can land this job so I'm doing fine thanks. How much do you make?
And who are you? Like I'm not supposed to be working at the same place for 2 years like the rest of the people you know? I'm supposed to be fired or quit? GTFO.
A pper my age might say hi and handshake. "Hey what are you doing now?" "Working." "Anything else? School." "Nope." Man, I'm a loser. Failure at more than one thing I've done. I'm expected to be going to school or have a plan, I don't have a plan.
Ugh. Damn Damn Damn world.