The_Gio
Nov 3, 2008, 11:52 PM
ok...I am really fucking frustrated at the first couple of impressions when it comes to people, especially with girls!
It pisses me off that I always end up either not trying hard enough or trying too much.
I always either scare people away or they leave just because I dont seem to give a shit, when in reality, thats not the case..i just dont want to try too hard.
What set me off this time, is that im just sick of getting close to having a relationship
I met a girl around two weeks ago..but we've been dancing around each others attention for the past two years..so now we finally get a class together and things are a little shaky with me, thankfully she puts in more than her effort to become friends and we end up becoming friends, she gets my cell and starts texting me and calling me and all that.
at first, i thought she was just drunk or high when she would message me since she would literally worship me in every text saying im cute and cool and all that. When I told her that, she says she's sober when she says those things to me and last thing she wants is me thinking she tells the things she tells me to everyone...so after i find that out I apologize to her and start praising her, telling her last thing i want is to push her away. she likes it and what not and so goes on the week
so if anyone payed attention to the post i posted in another subject, she invited me over to her house for halloween, and spent the night with her alone, after a week of knowing her. Things led to another and we ended up kissing and that kept escalating which I drew the line at sex cus i respect her too much to go for her at first opportunity. She liked that and she kept saying im very sweet and all that.
So halloween weekend passed and now i went to school today. She didnt kiss me, she did hug me but it felt akward, so that confused me. That led to me telling her that it confused me and that I dont know what to think of her at the moment. So i asked her if friday night meant anything and she said yeah it did but that im starting to make her think about it. I told her whatever she thinks about, thats her thing, and that its better anyway if she thinks it all out now anyway but to take her time, im not rushing her or anything that i mostly just wanted to know if friday night meant anything. So she told me she doesnt know...and pretty much ended it at that.
so now here i am angry at myself because i know this isnt going to end well...i shouldve just not said anything, the thing is if i didnt, she probably would start to think im not interested because like i said i didnt know if the night we spent together was something else or was it just a one night thing, and so would cause me to not try anything.
the thing that bothers me about all this is, if she knew me like other people do, she would know i dont really word my intentions right and usually come off as more of an asshole or just completely fake rather than what i wanted to say, with that said, im not very good with impressions when it comes to people. you got to be really patient to be my friend which leads as to why i dont have many. Im trying to change that but thats where the i try too hard or not try hard enough comes in
I HATE THE FIRST COUPLE OF IMPRESSIONS WITH PEOPLE!!!!
k...im done..
It pisses me off that I always end up either not trying hard enough or trying too much.
I always either scare people away or they leave just because I dont seem to give a shit, when in reality, thats not the case..i just dont want to try too hard.
What set me off this time, is that im just sick of getting close to having a relationship
I met a girl around two weeks ago..but we've been dancing around each others attention for the past two years..so now we finally get a class together and things are a little shaky with me, thankfully she puts in more than her effort to become friends and we end up becoming friends, she gets my cell and starts texting me and calling me and all that.
at first, i thought she was just drunk or high when she would message me since she would literally worship me in every text saying im cute and cool and all that. When I told her that, she says she's sober when she says those things to me and last thing she wants is me thinking she tells the things she tells me to everyone...so after i find that out I apologize to her and start praising her, telling her last thing i want is to push her away. she likes it and what not and so goes on the week
so if anyone payed attention to the post i posted in another subject, she invited me over to her house for halloween, and spent the night with her alone, after a week of knowing her. Things led to another and we ended up kissing and that kept escalating which I drew the line at sex cus i respect her too much to go for her at first opportunity. She liked that and she kept saying im very sweet and all that.
So halloween weekend passed and now i went to school today. She didnt kiss me, she did hug me but it felt akward, so that confused me. That led to me telling her that it confused me and that I dont know what to think of her at the moment. So i asked her if friday night meant anything and she said yeah it did but that im starting to make her think about it. I told her whatever she thinks about, thats her thing, and that its better anyway if she thinks it all out now anyway but to take her time, im not rushing her or anything that i mostly just wanted to know if friday night meant anything. So she told me she doesnt know...and pretty much ended it at that.
so now here i am angry at myself because i know this isnt going to end well...i shouldve just not said anything, the thing is if i didnt, she probably would start to think im not interested because like i said i didnt know if the night we spent together was something else or was it just a one night thing, and so would cause me to not try anything.
the thing that bothers me about all this is, if she knew me like other people do, she would know i dont really word my intentions right and usually come off as more of an asshole or just completely fake rather than what i wanted to say, with that said, im not very good with impressions when it comes to people. you got to be really patient to be my friend which leads as to why i dont have many. Im trying to change that but thats where the i try too hard or not try hard enough comes in
I HATE THE FIRST COUPLE OF IMPRESSIONS WITH PEOPLE!!!!
k...im done..