anwserman
Jan 23, 2004, 05:33 PM
Being socially withdrawn for my whole highschool career. It sucks.
Anyway, meeting new people in college has opened up my eyes to the fact that there are people out there that I can do stuff with... well, not even that. I still live at home and such, and about half of my classmates live in this area, and yet I do nothing with them because I don't know them well enough.
So, I post online. I mean, I had one really good friend in highschool, my friend Amanda. To tell the truth, we barely do stuff with each other everymore (like, once every two weeks), and when we were in HS we did stuff like every two days. And now, she called with an actually good idea about playing Fatal Frame 2 in my basement with surround sound, and I *should* be excited but I'm not, I'm actually disappointed.
Because thats all we ever do - when we do stuff - watch movies or play video games, or do some modified form of both (shoot videos about video games), but its all the same. I try to get her to do some things, first and foremost was to join me and play volleyball. She doesn't want too (she 'sucks' at volleyball, though its a 20 minute drive there), but still. Its just video games... and I'm honestly starting to get sick of them, or the concept behind them anyway.
While, Mitch, on the other hand, we just rented LOTR:FOTR and watched it my house, but on the other hand we do other things then just watching movies. He got me motivated into improving myself so I can play basketball with him (something I bite at), and at the same time he got me to play volleyball - which I'm slowly improving at.
I don't know, throughout school and into the beginning of college, video games were my life. Hell, I program and I strive to make a game, which I do have tons of code for. And i haven't touched that code for about two months now. I've barely done anything with the game, and the only game I do honestly play now across my many systems - GBA, DC, X-Box and Gamecube - is Phantasy Star Online. And I don't even play that if nobody is on. Social aspect only, I have no desire to play the rest of my games that gave me such pleasure a long time ago.
I don't know. I'm sensing that I am changing as a person, caught in a transition period between old and new.... life is confusing at times. I think I just need to relax, without any stress, and evaluate my friendships and personalities and to find myself, however that may be. Or perhaps getting my job back in two weeks will help too (DQ is opening), but I just seem... odd.
EDIT: Changed topic title
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Anyway, meeting new people in college has opened up my eyes to the fact that there are people out there that I can do stuff with... well, not even that. I still live at home and such, and about half of my classmates live in this area, and yet I do nothing with them because I don't know them well enough.
So, I post online. I mean, I had one really good friend in highschool, my friend Amanda. To tell the truth, we barely do stuff with each other everymore (like, once every two weeks), and when we were in HS we did stuff like every two days. And now, she called with an actually good idea about playing Fatal Frame 2 in my basement with surround sound, and I *should* be excited but I'm not, I'm actually disappointed.
Because thats all we ever do - when we do stuff - watch movies or play video games, or do some modified form of both (shoot videos about video games), but its all the same. I try to get her to do some things, first and foremost was to join me and play volleyball. She doesn't want too (she 'sucks' at volleyball, though its a 20 minute drive there), but still. Its just video games... and I'm honestly starting to get sick of them, or the concept behind them anyway.
While, Mitch, on the other hand, we just rented LOTR:FOTR and watched it my house, but on the other hand we do other things then just watching movies. He got me motivated into improving myself so I can play basketball with him (something I bite at), and at the same time he got me to play volleyball - which I'm slowly improving at.
I don't know, throughout school and into the beginning of college, video games were my life. Hell, I program and I strive to make a game, which I do have tons of code for. And i haven't touched that code for about two months now. I've barely done anything with the game, and the only game I do honestly play now across my many systems - GBA, DC, X-Box and Gamecube - is Phantasy Star Online. And I don't even play that if nobody is on. Social aspect only, I have no desire to play the rest of my games that gave me such pleasure a long time ago.
I don't know. I'm sensing that I am changing as a person, caught in a transition period between old and new.... life is confusing at times. I think I just need to relax, without any stress, and evaluate my friendships and personalities and to find myself, however that may be. Or perhaps getting my job back in two weeks will help too (DQ is opening), but I just seem... odd.
EDIT: Changed topic title
<font size=-1>[ This Message was edited by: anwserman on 2004-01-23 14:37 ]</font>