InfinityXXX
Sep 9, 2005, 01:03 AM
I feel that I need to dedicate a rant just for him. My brother.
Me and my brother have the same father and mother but he looks like his dad and I look like my mom. Now my dad was a criminal and abusive and we left him and I feel that my brother is following in his footsteps.
1)He's lazy
He is the most laziest and nasties person in the world. Sometimes going weeks w/o bnathing or brushing his teeth and laughing at me while I gag and sometimes throw up over the nasty ass scent he carries w/o bathing.
All he does is sit on the couch, watch Tv, or play games. He has his 2 chores but he never does one and for the other he does an awful job on it.
When I was growing up (still am) my mom was very disciplined on me. I would get in trouble for bringing home B's and I had to clean up and do all the household chores since I had to be the man of the house. Now I know why she did this for she has her famous qoute "The only way a black male can be successful in the world is if he works twice as hard as anyone else".
Now I agree with this but how come you don't discipline my brother? He brings home F's and you just throw him on some dinky punishment. You let him not do his chores. You let him smart mouth you and sit and do nothing. If i had done all those things, even if i had brought home a C, I would get a serious beat down!
2) His nasty attitude
My bro has the worse attitude ever. He talks about EVERYONE in the house. From the dog to even making sarcastic remarks to my mom. But he really goes after me.
The first insult he throws at me is of my looks. I usually where my head ball and when I do this (especially in the winter) along with my light brown skin tone, I look of hispanic heritage. I also have a semi deep yet high voice so he calls me Micky Mouse. Most times I don't mind but it gets on my nerves when alll you hear every day is "Mexican!" or his awful imitation of Mickey Mouse's voice.
Then the 2nd insult is an insult he calls everyone, gay. Well he doesn't use the word gay but he uses the offensive F or L word for it. (I don't want to type it out for I don't want to offend anyone on here)
One reason why he goes after me is that I hang out around a bunch of girls and I'm into the arts. I draw, I write stories, I paint, and I do poetry. I love nature and I'm always staring out the window dmiring it. Well, because this, I am so called un manly. I mean, whats wrong with writing poetry? Yes, I love to look out the window for a long time and I hang out with mainly girls because I don't really like guys.
Not only that but he accuses my 9 yr old sister of being gay and sometimes he'll say my mom is to. I'm starting to think that he may actually be the gay one.
3) Childish
Again, he is 13 yrs old and my sister is 9 and yet he tries to compete with her in everything. He still orders frekakin happy meals and they'll compare whos toy is better. If the mail arrives they'll race each other. My sister finds this fun but he is serious. This could be postivive thoguh but he always talks about my sister heavily till the point she breaks down and cries.
If you've looked in the Real life pic thread and saw my the pic of me and my sis, you'll notice that she has very very fair, yellow skin and she has gray eyes. She is not biracial and this is very rare in african americans. Becuase of this, my brother will call her white girl and make fun of ehr light skin tone and my sister is very sensitive to this. For though, my mom has yellow skin like my sister, its not as light as my sisters so she kinda feels a bit out of placed sometimes.
Now I am yellow brown (this summer i've turned orange brown and have earned the nickname, baby carrot) and my brother is the basic brown of most african americans and for some reason I feel that hes sub conscious about this for he is the darkest in the family. I dunno why? Yous should be happy with what god gave you but the comments he makes makes this quite obvious.
4) His anger
Just like his father he has severe anger problems. I use to when I was 5-6 but I grew out of it and now i shrug everything off but his gets worse and worse.
Everyone once and a while, when I'm fed up with him talking about everyone, I'll start to joke with him, and he'll start to cry and get all upset.(heh, its no fun when the tables are turned) Eventually he'll get so angry that he'll try to attck me and this will lead to devastating fights. In our fights I always go on the defense and try to pin him down so he calm down but every now and then I'll have to punch him. I hate fighting but I dunno why insists ogoing against someone 3 times older than him. I'm shorter than him but I'm stronger.
When he feels hes losing the fight he'll go in the kitchen and grab a knife (one time a fire lighter) and try to attack me with it. I've been REALLY lucky to not get stabbed out of all these fights. I'll eventually somehow kick the knife out of his hand or my mom will talk him out of it an dthats how his rages will end.
But sometimes he'll get mad over some little things(if i tell him to clean up) that he'll start screaming and saying that hes gonna kill me and everyone else and he hopes i die.
5) His evilness
My bro is very evil. He will lie to the end and will lie over little things. One time when I was lifting waits. I had put 2 starburst on the table. Now only me and him were inthe house and I saw him in the kitchen and yet when I confronted him he lied and lied.
He use to destroy certain things of mine. Until one day, he broke a organizer that my grand mom on our dads side gave me and I called her and she fussed at him. Now he breaks his own stuff. (I dunno why, for hes only hurting himself)
But what really is evil about you is that hes a snake in the grass. He will literally turn the tables around on everything with bold flat out lies. He'll warp around words and actions to make his opponent look like the suspect for his crime.
I've always envied friends of mines that had brothers and they were so close and they held secrets amongst themselves for i can't do that with mine. I remember one time, I had no one to talk to and one of my ex girlfriends had talked to me. I was very hurt for she dumped me and I told him I didn't want my mom to know.....the next day he tells my mom and laughs about it in my face.
Not only this but he has no life so listens to my conversations on the phone. He so childish for he'll go back and tell my mom "OMG, KISSED SOMEONE!!!!!" and let her know all sorts of things. Nut what really topped it off was when he told my mom I was thinking about having sex. This was something I was gonna take my time and come to her on my own but he had went through my backpack and found a note from a friend of mine talking about the subject at hand.
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I care for my brother but I feel that I'll never be able to have a brother relationship with him for every attempt that I've made to bond with him, he destroyed it. Me and my 9 year old sister have the only sibling bond in the house. My brother is cold person. But i know, that he only do this stuff because of his low self esteem. He was picked on at one time, hes sub conscious about his skin tone and his looks, he doesn't really stand out ina crowd, hes a follower, he can't pass or reach the goals I'v made, and he is a coward.
Now hes in his whole gangster phase. And it really piss me off with the cheap ebonics. I mean, you can tell hes tryings. Though we've lived in hoods and projects we've never acted like SOME of the people that lived their. We were raised better than that.
I think what has happened was that my mom had me at a young age and after raising me and dealing with an abusive boyfriend(my dad) and going to college at a late age, she grew up to fast and now she wants to relive it. She put so much discipline in my life, she made me do chores to make me be a better person, and she gave me a million pep talks and made me read various books all so that I can be a decent person in life and I thank her for that but shes worn out and she lets my sister and brother get away with a lot.(Shes a bit stricter on my sister though)
But I think the future for my brother is not so great. He needs to get his stuff together. He needs to find himself, and set his standards higher.
Me and my brother have the same father and mother but he looks like his dad and I look like my mom. Now my dad was a criminal and abusive and we left him and I feel that my brother is following in his footsteps.
1)He's lazy
He is the most laziest and nasties person in the world. Sometimes going weeks w/o bnathing or brushing his teeth and laughing at me while I gag and sometimes throw up over the nasty ass scent he carries w/o bathing.
All he does is sit on the couch, watch Tv, or play games. He has his 2 chores but he never does one and for the other he does an awful job on it.
When I was growing up (still am) my mom was very disciplined on me. I would get in trouble for bringing home B's and I had to clean up and do all the household chores since I had to be the man of the house. Now I know why she did this for she has her famous qoute "The only way a black male can be successful in the world is if he works twice as hard as anyone else".
Now I agree with this but how come you don't discipline my brother? He brings home F's and you just throw him on some dinky punishment. You let him not do his chores. You let him smart mouth you and sit and do nothing. If i had done all those things, even if i had brought home a C, I would get a serious beat down!
2) His nasty attitude
My bro has the worse attitude ever. He talks about EVERYONE in the house. From the dog to even making sarcastic remarks to my mom. But he really goes after me.
The first insult he throws at me is of my looks. I usually where my head ball and when I do this (especially in the winter) along with my light brown skin tone, I look of hispanic heritage. I also have a semi deep yet high voice so he calls me Micky Mouse. Most times I don't mind but it gets on my nerves when alll you hear every day is "Mexican!" or his awful imitation of Mickey Mouse's voice.
Then the 2nd insult is an insult he calls everyone, gay. Well he doesn't use the word gay but he uses the offensive F or L word for it. (I don't want to type it out for I don't want to offend anyone on here)
One reason why he goes after me is that I hang out around a bunch of girls and I'm into the arts. I draw, I write stories, I paint, and I do poetry. I love nature and I'm always staring out the window dmiring it. Well, because this, I am so called un manly. I mean, whats wrong with writing poetry? Yes, I love to look out the window for a long time and I hang out with mainly girls because I don't really like guys.
Not only that but he accuses my 9 yr old sister of being gay and sometimes he'll say my mom is to. I'm starting to think that he may actually be the gay one.
3) Childish
Again, he is 13 yrs old and my sister is 9 and yet he tries to compete with her in everything. He still orders frekakin happy meals and they'll compare whos toy is better. If the mail arrives they'll race each other. My sister finds this fun but he is serious. This could be postivive thoguh but he always talks about my sister heavily till the point she breaks down and cries.
If you've looked in the Real life pic thread and saw my the pic of me and my sis, you'll notice that she has very very fair, yellow skin and she has gray eyes. She is not biracial and this is very rare in african americans. Becuase of this, my brother will call her white girl and make fun of ehr light skin tone and my sister is very sensitive to this. For though, my mom has yellow skin like my sister, its not as light as my sisters so she kinda feels a bit out of placed sometimes.
Now I am yellow brown (this summer i've turned orange brown and have earned the nickname, baby carrot) and my brother is the basic brown of most african americans and for some reason I feel that hes sub conscious about this for he is the darkest in the family. I dunno why? Yous should be happy with what god gave you but the comments he makes makes this quite obvious.
4) His anger
Just like his father he has severe anger problems. I use to when I was 5-6 but I grew out of it and now i shrug everything off but his gets worse and worse.
Everyone once and a while, when I'm fed up with him talking about everyone, I'll start to joke with him, and he'll start to cry and get all upset.(heh, its no fun when the tables are turned) Eventually he'll get so angry that he'll try to attck me and this will lead to devastating fights. In our fights I always go on the defense and try to pin him down so he calm down but every now and then I'll have to punch him. I hate fighting but I dunno why insists ogoing against someone 3 times older than him. I'm shorter than him but I'm stronger.
When he feels hes losing the fight he'll go in the kitchen and grab a knife (one time a fire lighter) and try to attack me with it. I've been REALLY lucky to not get stabbed out of all these fights. I'll eventually somehow kick the knife out of his hand or my mom will talk him out of it an dthats how his rages will end.
But sometimes he'll get mad over some little things(if i tell him to clean up) that he'll start screaming and saying that hes gonna kill me and everyone else and he hopes i die.
5) His evilness
My bro is very evil. He will lie to the end and will lie over little things. One time when I was lifting waits. I had put 2 starburst on the table. Now only me and him were inthe house and I saw him in the kitchen and yet when I confronted him he lied and lied.
He use to destroy certain things of mine. Until one day, he broke a organizer that my grand mom on our dads side gave me and I called her and she fussed at him. Now he breaks his own stuff. (I dunno why, for hes only hurting himself)
But what really is evil about you is that hes a snake in the grass. He will literally turn the tables around on everything with bold flat out lies. He'll warp around words and actions to make his opponent look like the suspect for his crime.
I've always envied friends of mines that had brothers and they were so close and they held secrets amongst themselves for i can't do that with mine. I remember one time, I had no one to talk to and one of my ex girlfriends had talked to me. I was very hurt for she dumped me and I told him I didn't want my mom to know.....the next day he tells my mom and laughs about it in my face.
Not only this but he has no life so listens to my conversations on the phone. He so childish for he'll go back and tell my mom "OMG, KISSED SOMEONE!!!!!" and let her know all sorts of things. Nut what really topped it off was when he told my mom I was thinking about having sex. This was something I was gonna take my time and come to her on my own but he had went through my backpack and found a note from a friend of mine talking about the subject at hand.
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I care for my brother but I feel that I'll never be able to have a brother relationship with him for every attempt that I've made to bond with him, he destroyed it. Me and my 9 year old sister have the only sibling bond in the house. My brother is cold person. But i know, that he only do this stuff because of his low self esteem. He was picked on at one time, hes sub conscious about his skin tone and his looks, he doesn't really stand out ina crowd, hes a follower, he can't pass or reach the goals I'v made, and he is a coward.
Now hes in his whole gangster phase. And it really piss me off with the cheap ebonics. I mean, you can tell hes tryings. Though we've lived in hoods and projects we've never acted like SOME of the people that lived their. We were raised better than that.
I think what has happened was that my mom had me at a young age and after raising me and dealing with an abusive boyfriend(my dad) and going to college at a late age, she grew up to fast and now she wants to relive it. She put so much discipline in my life, she made me do chores to make me be a better person, and she gave me a million pep talks and made me read various books all so that I can be a decent person in life and I thank her for that but shes worn out and she lets my sister and brother get away with a lot.(Shes a bit stricter on my sister though)
But I think the future for my brother is not so great. He needs to get his stuff together. He needs to find himself, and set his standards higher.