I've discussed this with a few friends before, and now I want your opinion, PSOW!
Okay, well, I have a very large phobia of people with grotesque deformities. Giant tumors growing from their nose, boils the size of kittens all over their body, fingers growing from their elbows, you name it. Sometimes, even people missing arms and legs frighten me if I see the ends that are usually scabbed or something like that.
I'm not sure if this makes me shallow or not. After all, fear doesn't differentiate between people. As much as I would love it to, my subconscious does not say "Well, this is a nice person and you love them, so everything's okay". I'm sure that's a natural reaction, but then I think about this situation- what if one day I have a husband who gets badly burned on his face? I'd never be able to look at him again. Ever. I just couldn't help it. Sure, I'd still love him, and I wouldn't treat him differently or anything.. but I just couldn't look at him. I can't imagine how that'd make him feel. Of course, it's just a hypothetical situation. I really hope nothing like that ever happens to me :\
Anyway, on to an actual story.
tl;dr: Fuck off.
About a month and a half earlier I graduated from high school. The day of the graduation ceremony my mom and I were out at the mall, doing normal graduation stuff--getting my hair done, getting me a purdy dress, etc. At some point my mom wanted to stop by the accessories place, so I just kinda stood in front of a mirror and examined myself like any other young lady would do. I eventually saw my mom at the check-out counter. She was there for a pretty long time, and after getting bored with the mirror, I went over to stand next to her, and...
.. I didn't quite notice, but the lady that was working at the counter had bumps all over her body. They looked like boils or bubbles, I couldn't look at them long enough to really explain. But they were bumps, all over her shoulders, arms, neck, chest; of all shapes and sizes. There were even a few on her face, though those weren't that bad. Instinctively, I was frightened by her. I didn't show any outward signs of it, though. I just made sure I would look her only in the eye, and never, ever glance down at her chest or anything. And she was a really nice lady. VERY friendly and outgoing.
While we were walking away, I turned to my mom and said "Why did she-" and my mom quickly answered "I don't know." while briskly walking ahead of me. We discussed it in the car for a bit.
Fastforward, a few weeks later. We go back to the same mall, same place, Nordstrom. I'm with my grandma this time. And I knew that lady worked there, so I was very attentive at all times for fear of spotting her. And then, I saw her, at a distance, putting something on a shelf. I grabbed my grandma by the arm and said "We need to leave, now." And she gave me a concerned look and said, "Why?" and I said "I'll tell you in the car." But unless we did a crazy maneuver around the place, we'd have to pass by her to exit. And we did, and she recognized me, and I recognized her and glanced at her and smiled like I would with any other person. And she said, "How did the graduation go?" and I said "Oh, I had a lot of fun." and she smiled, and then noticed we were leaving and then waved goodbye and I waved back. Since she was further away this time I couldn't actually see the bumps. I knew they were there, I just couldn't see them. My grandma, on the other hand, could. And she started briskly walking ahead of me the same way my mom did.
Me and her talked about it for a little while. I said "Well, you know, she can't really help it, can she?"
My grandma said, "She could at least wear a turtle neck."
And she was kinda right. The lady who had that disease, whatever it was, wore very skimpy clothing. Short black skirts. Sleeveless tank tops. Fishnet stockings. High heels. She was a very pretty lady. Cute face, perfect figure, long legs, straight teeth... and I could understand why she'd want to flaunt it and all, but, well, there was a minor flaw. :s
Then I said, "Yeah. But still, she's really nice."
Then my grandmother (who was a psychology major growing up) told me that she was actually exhibiting vicious behavior by wearing flashy clothing because she should very well know that whatever she has is horrifying.
My grandma's a little neurotic (as most psychology majors are ) so I'm not sure how valid her opinions are.. so I'd like to know what you all think.
Am I a terrible person for never wanting to visit that Nordstrom again until I'm sure she doesn't work there? Or am I just a normal human being for being so scared of the whole idea?
YOU DECIDE
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